“Stuck in that time when we called it love, but even the sun sets in Paradise”

 

Okay, so just a few days ago I posted a lil’ sum sum about summer and the shining sun, and then the sky got all dark and started bawling…and it has been bawling since then.

Although I find rain to be quite peaceful, as you may remember from this, I  sometimes find it to be a little too dampening and cold if continues on for too long. The odd thing is, people normally take their cars out in the rain even to go to a store 5 minutes away just to avoid getting wet, whereas I enjoy the walk! Apart from the wind that goes right through my cotton scarves and swirls around my neck giving me chills, I find it to be quite nice. The grass smells fresh, the leaves look so pretty with the rains resting on them. The streets tend to get quite lonely in the rain too, since people decide to stay indoors and enjoy some cozy time on the couch or making nice hot meals in the kitchen. I sometimes find myself taking the long way home on a rainy day, just to enjoy a few more minutes of the pitter patter! After all, in a monotonous life of school and work, you don’t always get wash off the wariness that covers you. Sometimes you need to smell something refreshing to help your mind and body breathe again.

This post was not meant to be about rain at all, but I guess my mind decided to digress. Ah well! Maybe I’ll tell you what I really came to tell you some other time.

I hope you’re week is going well!

 

Yours Truly x

“What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful”

Whether it's just checking into a theatre nearby with some friends to watch the latest movies, or driving out to the mountains to spend a night or two roasting marshmallows on the camp fire, or checking into the airport to board a flight to different cities to visit family or explore the world. Or just driving for hours on the highway by the country side getting nowhere, but just feeling the wind in the hair, everybody seems to be doing something. At least that’s what my Facebook newsfeed tells me every time I log on. Everyone I know seems to be grasping on to every moment of the summer and living it to the fullest!

And then there is me. Sitting here in envy of all the people enjoying their breaks while I’m stuck in my hometown just working and going to school. Ugh! One more month!
Summer is truly my favourite season of all, for obvious reasons of course. I love the sun, I love the chilled drinks, I love being able to walk out of my house without having to bundle up or layer on lots of clothing for the chilly days. I love people dressed in light and bright colors walking on the street having ice cream. I love the yearly festival that comes to town, and call me crazy but I love the children running around enjoying the breeze in their hair. I love my summer dresses and the open toe sandals.Summer is just pleasant. Especially because for us students its stress free.

Since we’re on the topic, I should mention how much I’ve spent on my summer wardrobe. Yikes! Okay maybe not that much, but its just hard to keep yourself from shopping for the perfect coloured shoes or that one dress with the best patterns and belt! :(

To end off, I’d have to say that the best part of summer break is spending it with the family and friends. Catching up on all the missed TV shows, and of course sitting right here talking to you lovely readers! Summer is my time to relieve e my mind of all the stress and just let it be free, like the breeze that flows through the grass at dawn.

What is your favourite thing about the summer?

Take care, smile and enjoy the sun!

Yours Truly x

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Title: Slide – Goo goo Dolls

Another day goes by, and all I see is a reflection of you in the mirror in front of me.

 

The more her fingers danced on the keyboard and clicked away, the more she realised how quiet her room was. All she could hear were her fingers, no birds outside, no wind blowing. It was silent. But then again, it was 1 am and she was trying hard to get her assignments done. There should be no reason for any living creature to be up that late. But she had got caught in this loop of work and school so bad that there was no way out for a while now. There were times when she would think about her personal life and realise that she didn’t have one, or that it had been too long since she had seen any of her friends. They would text, and occasionally talk via Facebook, but that was all. Her life felt so loud while she was in class or working away, that she never realised how quiet it really was when she was alone.

Sometimes she wished she could just shove the books aside, turn the alarm off, and just take a break. But it wasn’t time for that yet. A few more months until she would be back home in her own house resting her head in her grandma’s lap. That’s when this would all pay off. She would picture that moment in her head and a smile would slowly make its way across her face. She would do anything to make that dream come true, she could wait it out!

What’s the hardest thing you’ve had to wait out for?

 

Yours Truly x

 

“Let’s delay our misery, and fight the break of dawn, cause tomorrow I will be gone.”

In the world of filmmaking there are two types of directors. They have very different perceptions on how  the world is, and how it’s ought to be captured into a 2 hour movie.

The first looks at the world as a place where life is found in every corner. In every part, no matter what it is, you can easily find life. These types of directors use very detailed parts of nature or an urban setting, but only a very minor part to represent all of reality in their films. Their approach is to make the most of as little as possible and make the viewers think outside the box. They believe in representation and symbolisation of things that stretch far beyond, but we see their existence in every part of life.

The second looks at the world as a painted picture. Just as a portrait is self-contained and holds the whole universe inside it, so does the world we see. These directors don’t think past what is in front of them. The whole universe can be captured in one whole picture, and there is no question of, whether anything exists beyond the four corners. It’s all about ‘right here, right now’.

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After that lesson in Film Studies I left the room thinking about the two categories of directors. I didn’t wonder about how they imagined the world to be…that was obvious. What I wondered was that, why is this concept only applied to directors?

I can name average people who are no where near being film directors, but can fall into those categories. Doesn’t everyone of us think like one of these ‘directors’? Some of us like to focus on the tiniest of details of life and admire how they can resemble all of existence. While, others like to live in the moment and focus on what is here and now. And as each day passes by, they paint a new picture in front of them and admire that and so on.

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Right about now I would end this post with a question which went something along the lines of : ‘Which director type are you?’ But in all honesty, I can’t answer that question myself, so I don’t think I have a right to ask others.

I sometimes find myself looking at that one piece of a puzzle and wondering how it is so important to the whole picture. Even if you put all the 99 pieces together, if you’re missing that one piece, your picture qualifies as incomplete..or ‘almost complete’ depending on how you look at it.

Other times, I find myself in sort of a tunnel vision, and observing only what is within my sight. I don’t turn to look at the past, or right or left to see who is by my side, nor do I get up on my toes and peak way out into the future. I just stay within the four corners and live for what I have, and not worry about what was or could be waiting for me. Carpe diem?

I guess what I’m saying is that I can’t put myself in one category or another. I think in different ways, and maybe you do as well. Depending on the situation you are in, and the people you are with, you may want to seize the day and cherish what is ‘here and now’, or perhaps you would like to carry a box of memories with you, which of course has far more sentimental value than it has a materialistic one.

Let’s say I do put out this question to you…could you place yourself in one or the other? If yes, which one? If no, then why?

 

Have a great weekend thinkers!

 

Yours Truly

 

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Title: Save tonight – Eagle eye cherry

“Do you think it’ll be alright if I just crash here tonight? You see I’m in no shape for driving and I’ve got no place to go.”

 

"No no no! You don't understand. Jelly donuts don't just have a lil' bit of jelly like you put on a toast or something. I saw the chef make 'em myself. He injects the thing with so much jelly that it nearly pops! Each and every one of 'em!" she explained in a sort of disgusted manner. Working in fast food wasn't the best job, but she was always fascinated by the amount of fats and sugars her customers can consume in just a $2.45 on a daily basis.

It's funny how much a round of dough can stretch to hold all that jelly inside it. Do you think it ever pops? Isn't that the case with anything that holds other things? A balloon with too much air would eventually pop! Speaking of which, I was surprised with a whole bunch of balloons in my room for my birthday last week..but I decided to pop them all before I went to bed, only because I was scared one might POP in the middle of the night and I would die in my sleep!

Anyways, and what about a suitcase packed with items, the zipper's eventually got to give up, no? What I sometimes wonder is that what if these lifeless containers of jelly and air and clothes could feel the burden inside them. Would they ache? Kind of like a heart you know? When there's just way too much locked up inside it begins to ache, does it not? Reminding you to take off some of that pressure or things could get bad for you.

Since my personal pressure reliever (PR) has been busy doing a Masters in petrol or fish or something, I haven’t really had time to let out some of the pressure. Also I feel bad for them, they’ve always been that pillow that gets punched when you’re upset (figuratively! I would NEVER actually do that!) Haven't told this to the PR yet either, or they'd drop all their papers and projects and come running. Friends and their loyalty..pshht!

So I've decided to find another tool to release all this pressure: Blogging. I’ve done this before and it hasn’t always worked, but I’m still going to give it another try. Mind you that it won’t be just a daily log of what happened and how I felt, but it will be veiled with fictional stories with a hint of reality in them. Like it says in the ‘about me’ box, its your job to guess what is what ;).

So, I will be getting back to you all real soon with stories and ramblings that have been inside this container far too long. The best part of it all will be reading your stories and ramblings..to feel that human touch you know?

Till then, take care of yourself, be good and keep writing like there's no tomorrow! ;)

Yours truly

 

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Title: Gin Blossoms – Hey Jealousy

“It's hard to remember The people we used to be It's even harder to picture That you're not here next to me You say it's too late to make it But is it too late to try?”

 

sometimes there are little things that make people happy:

a compliment on your shoes.

when the neighbours shovel the snow off your sidewalk.

and then there are people in your life that remember all the little things that make you happy and put them together in a precious gift for you.

 

This was sent from far far far away from a very special special friend. This lovely friend of mine likes to celebrate “friendaversaries”. I know! cute right? :D and seeing as my birthday fell soon after the anniversary, there was a little something for that too! I wasn’t expecting the package to contain so much, so I was quite surprised and pleased!

There was a lot I wanted to say to them. Tell them how great this gift was, and more importantly, how great they were. But I never really had the chance. okay that’s incorrect, I had the chance I just … didn’t have the words.

Why is it so hard to talk when you really need to talk? But you blabber like crazy in an everyday conversation?

 

Hope you people have been well. :)

 

Yours Truly x

 

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Title: Pay Phone – Maroon 5